Friday, October 19, 2007

It seems crazy to me at times how fast time goes by, I can't believe close to another month has passed by. Life is Arizona continues to be a great experience! There is alot to think and pray about for next year. So weird to be actually thinking about them issuing me a call in a few months. When people ask me how I am feeling about being out here I am not really sure how I should respond...I want to say great because I love the church and the people here are so amazing! But then a part of me is unsure because there are tiny frustrations and concerns that I have. So most of the time I say that things are going ok, because they could be better and yet they could be worse. There are always things that I wish I could change right now, but I know that the Lord has a plan through all of this. I just need to place my trust in Him and He will reveal to himself all in due time. There are always those thoughts in my head that scare me but I know I cannot dwell on the things that I cannot change.

Even though I have only been here for a little over 4 months at times I feel like I have been here forever! Maybe it is so much has changed since then and then maybe it is I that has changed since last May. Sometimes when I talk to people back at school, camp or wherever I feel like I am a completely different person from when I last saw them. It scares me to say this but I think the connection I once had with this certain person is going away. It makes me sad to think that we are not as close as we used to be. But sometimes as we grow and mature sometimes those friendships change as well and in not always a bad way. I just feel like there is something different and I cannot really explain what that difference is.

There has been so many thoughts in my mind lately, being here without alot of friends my age it has given me alot of times to think about so much. Sometimes that is a good thing or a bad thing it really all depends. It has helped me come to term with so much and get over so many things that I needed to move on pass. I feel like I am in such a total different place in my life, that I have this new found contentedness and independence that I never have had before! It is such an amazing feeling! I am so excited t osee where the Lord is going to lead me in the next few months!!!

In Christ,
Miche/ Ehawee

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