Over the past day or so I have been thinking alot of the circumstances that have happened in my life over the past 6 months...even I am amazed at where God has directed me to! I never thought I would be at this place, this location at this point in my life! A year ago I was 100% certain that God was calling me into DCE ministry but God had other plans. Actually experiencing where I actually fit in ministry and with my own gifts and talents God had revealed to me that He has a different plan for me that I had orginally thought. The past 6 months have caused me to go through a roller coaster of emotions: from depression, loneliness, confusion, frustration, impatient, anger to true content, joy, happiness, excitement...this list could go on forever! But after contemplating everything to has happened with my internship, my life, my family, my friends I am thankful that God had me experience this. The time of my life I have matured and grown in so many ways that I had never thought I needed to or would have to experience. Alot of times we don’t grow and want to see things unless they are forced right into our faces. I know it was that way for me! God had to force something in my face for me to truly see it. Even though sometimes I wish he could have gone by other means to reveal himself more along when I would have liked him to, I know He reveals everything in His perfect timing! God has a divine purpose and reason for everything that happens in our lives!
So many times I have felt that so many of my struggles and frustrations I had to deal with them alone but the answer was soo simple! I just had to ask God for his help and guidance! Gosh, I wish this hadn’t taken me soo long to get this...just another one of those duh! moments!!! It seemed when I started asking for God’s direct help in my life (with finding a job, personal matters, lonliness, happiness) that is when things just started to fall into place again! For about 2 months it seemed like my life was falling apart and that everything was going wrong!! I so easily forget that God is just longing that I seek him and come to Him for help!! If this is the lesson that He had desired for me to learn I am soo thankful that the things that happened.....happened when they did!
I just thought I would update a little about the recent happenings in my life to those of who that I don’t have the opportunity to talk to on a more consistent basis! I think about all of you all the time! I hope everyone is great and know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers!! I love you all soo much! Even if we haven’t talked in months...I am still always here for all of you!!
If you find time I would love to receive a phone call, text, comment, message, etc from each and everyone of you!!
In Christ’s Embrace,
Michelle/Miche/Ehawe
Sunday, April 6, 2008
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